Monday, October 3, 2011

It's not her time!

As I was walking this morning and communing with God a dream I had eight years ago came to mind.  A dream I had a couple of months after my younger sister Linda had gone home to be with our Heavenly Father.  Let me back up just a little.  Linda had been ill for several years with Pulmonary Fibrosis, Auto Immune Liver Disease and Lupus.  The week prior to her going home my baby sister Nellie was spending some time with Linda.  Nellie told me about some things Linda had said and done.  One of the things that really sticks in my mind was when Linda was moving her arms in a motion that looked a lot like she was trying to fly.  When Linda was asked what she was doing she stated "I don't want to loose my place in line."  This was one of the last statements Linda made before her journey home which brings me to my dream.

I dreamt that I was being lifted up in the air and came to rest in what I will call a holding room with all these people working at different stations.  As they were looking up my name I heard this booming voice say "It's not her time, send her back."  The next thing I remember from the dream is I am walking along in the midst of all this kaos.  There is smoke and fire, people are dying and I hear all the commotion of people fighting.  I remember someone asking me did I see Mama and my answer was "No I wasn't looking for her because I knew she was there."  Then I looked to my right and saw the Lion and the Lamb lying down together. 

This dream brothered me for a long time as I didn't understand what God was telling me.  I think I do now.  God was telling me that He still has work for me to do and I felt that even stronger this morning.  He is telling me that I need to put my trust and faith in Him.  That when something comes my way to not look at it as a chore but as a ministry.  As long as I keep my eyes on Him and remain true to the calling He has on my life He will carry me through whatever situation comes my way.  So I will quit my complaining and get on with the task God has put before me.  I will forgive those that have hurt me and I will ask for forgiveness from those that I have hurt.  God has things for me to do and He is in large and in control!

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6

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